ive been thinking abt something recently. cos like ive been spending the last few days moving arnd in different places and been spending alot of time sitting arnd doing nothing allowing me to observe, and ive just been noticing tt its really easy to tell the difference btw a neighbourhood sch kid and a "branded name" school kid. of course there are some anomalities (ie. joshua poh) but on the whole both groups just have that certain look, that air in a way. and im not saying it to the detriment of either grp but somehow i think tt this divide will just get wider. like i remeber how eric (my senior) used to try to hide the fact tt he was frm ang mo kio sec even tho vj is not say a super posh sch or anything. and how i think tt i too view neighbourhood sch kids in a different way. i know its not good lah but its just liddat. and not say i judge them based on tt lah but i guess i would just assume straight off tt we prob dun have much in common.and now that i have been able to see more of singapore other than school and my home, i guess i kinda always thot tt singapore was a pretty affluent place. i know its naive lah but although i always saw tt there were lots of flats arnd not many of my frens live in them and even fewer of my family members and so i guess i never really realised that SO many pple live in them! i was like thinking how everyone assumes tt a couples first home after they marry will always be a flat and i was like thinking in my mind "huh. i wun want to live in a flat ever" and then i realised tt tt was a really pretentious thought, but the fact is tt i wun. i know that im spoilt and its not as if i look down on them but its just tt in my mind i see them as different from me, not in a bad way lah. just yah. in the same way i wun want to live in america kinda thing. wierd rite. hmm. dunno lah. i think some things are just ingrained into ones mind that try as one might its stuck there. this woman asked me on monday (cos she was doing a survey) how many times i eat in kopitiams and stuff and my ans was once a week on average. and i realised tt its really true leh! as in. sometimes i eat in a kopitiam as a novelty kinda thing. thats y i admore people like esther for working in one! cos like. i dun think i can make it for 10 hours without aircon. oh no i am spoilt! but somehow this mentality only comes in singapore. in india i din have air con for a mnth and i was perfectly fine with it and it was even dirtier than the dirtiest kopitiam and i was fine with it. funny. oh wells. im glad that i have kinda opened my eyes abit. i realised tt i really have been so sheltered so much so tt my eyes were blinded to this whole other nation around me.

anyway today is my first day of work! i hope i dun get fired!